July 7, 2012, our 28th monthsary, later that afternoon I was about to go to Angela’s house because we will attend the 18th bday party of her friend. Part of my heart wants to buy her flowers because it’s our monthsary. Another part of it doesn’t want to because I am carrying the clothes that I will wear in the party. Also, buying her flowers means that I have to go to Glorietta in Makati, though there is a terminal near my place in Pasay straight to San Pedro Laguna where she lives.
How lazy and selfish my heart can be sometimes. But you know what, I went to buy her flowers anyway. In that moment I was able to love her beyond the sickness of my heart.
I’m not narrating this story to boast of my ‘romantic’ love in that moment, but it is to boast of God’s love for me. 1 John 4:19 says that we love because God first loved us. I pursue my girl because God pursues me. I love her because God loves me. There’s no other way it works and it will ever work but through it.
When you are filled you overflow and what you overflow depends on what fills you. Everyday I’m learning how to pursue and be thoughtful because of God.
1. On pursuing
3 Then Jesus told them this parable: 4 “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5 And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6 and goes home -Luke 15:3-6
God’s passion is to pursue me. This is the God who is willing to leave the 99 sheeps to search for His one missing sheep. Many times I have drifted away but He comes looking for me and would not stop until He finds me. As we are created in His image, that’s how God designed us men too, to pursue. There are times that I and Angela fight over something. But I’ve proven over time that the inner adventure of pursuing someone gives me true happiness and satisfaction rather than waiting to be vindicated. As a man my joy doesn’t lie in being pursued when we quarrel though I think I have a very valid point. But my joy lies in the adventure of looking for flowers though it’s late at night, in having to ride two jeeps, one train, one bus and a tricycle just to say I’m sorry and in the thrill of seeing her smile when I found a “just-as-romantic” alternative to flowers such as a Hello Kitty chocolate lollipop (her favorite character).
MEN, don’t let the devil blind you of your original design which is to pursue. The enemy will try to convince you that you have to be at the receiving end, unproactive and waiting to be vindicated as he tries to attack your EGO. But when the devil tries to do that, look to God and on how He pursues you everyday. Let Him set an example to you and move you. And when you overcome the lies of the devil you will prove that pursuing is really your original design and the adventure that goes along with it is your wonderful and valiant destiny.
2. On being thoughtful
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand —
when I awake, I am still with you. -Psalm 139:17-18
Reading this verse I imagine God beside me as I sleep, stroking my hair and having thoughts over me. He’s thinking of every details of my life. From the biggest detail such as my career path to the smallest detail such as making me catch the last jeepney trip to our home the next day cause I’m going home late. He’s after my success, my safety, giving me something to smile about on an ordinary day, He hears my dreams and prayers and evaluates if I’m ready to receive it or not, He’s after my faith and my heart, He is even conscious of my physical fitness. Every move I make, everything that will be best for me, He’s thinking of it. He’s the perfect example that we can look to when we think of thoughtfulness. For Him, thoughtfulness is not limited to bringing home a pasalubong, but for Him, thoughtfulness is thinking of what is best for others. Thoughtfulness is pondering on what your loved ones need and thinking of a way to be an answer to it. Thoughtfulness goes more than giving physical things, but thinking of how to make someone’s life better and drawing them closer to God.
MEN, if we want to be thoughtful, again let us look to God as an example. God’s vision of a man thoughtful to his girlfriend is not limited to a depiction of John Lloyd holding flowers with ballons on the side. It’s constantly thinking of your girl’s needs (physical, emotional, spiritual) and how to bring out the best in them. Be thoughtful to her just like how thoughtful He is to you.
“GOD, thank you for loving us. Sometimes going the extra mile, letting go of our pride to love is really hard.. But we thank You Jesus because Your love pursues, Your love thinks of others, Your love will do everything that You even died on the cross to reach for us. Thank You for empowering us and setting an example of love to us. A love that does whatever it takes is possible because of You.”